emily-esque asked: Maybe I was just primed by your "Trans Transcendence" post yesterday, but the fact that my hormones are in the form of a literal patch has me thinking of it as a metaphorical patch too: i.e., the best firmware upgrade *ever*.
That’s so cool. I know someone who got a tattoo in the spot where she put her first patch.
So! I’m about 15 months into hormones and I had a blood test recently. Good news: my estrogen and testosterone are at female-typical levels. Bad news: apparently my triglycerides are “elevated”. My doctor didn’t see any need to adjust my dose right now or move up my next appointment (in 6 months) or order any more tests, and they didn’t really have any suggestions for lowering this until I specifically asked.
Has anyone else dealt with this before? How worried should I be? I’m already going to start doing pretty much everything under the sun to bring this down before my next checkup.
Anonymous asked: Just so you know, some people do report changes in orientation due to HRT. Some people are heterosexual or homosexual both before AND after they transition, they often report a period of low or non-existent libido during transition, usually related to either HRT or castration, and when their libido returns, their orientation has "flipped." But it's by no means a universal thing, I'm not suggesting that hormone therapy would "work" as a way of intentionally trying to change someone's orientation.
I’ve seen this happen, but I question how much of it is directly due to HRT. It seems pretty inconsistent in its effects; a lot of people seem to have no real change in orientation. I’m more inclined to believe any perceived changes in orientation are due to 1) how badly dysphoria messes with us and our understanding of ourselves before transitioning, and 2) how much HRT can get our dysphoria out of the way and help us see ourselves as we truly are.
Personally, back when I was a “guy”, I had trouble forming relationships or being intimate with anyone at all. I knew I was supposed to want that, and I tried to make it happen, but I was just… so averse to the idea of ever having to sleep with someone. For a time, I thought I was asexual or something.
And even when I did find someone who was right for me, sex was still a problem. It was like… wanting to be close, and wanting it to work, but then shying away from touch. And I just didn’t know what was wrong with me. I didn’t understand why it wasn’t working, even when I actually wanted to do this. I just got so anxious and I couldn’t relax, and it was starting to make me question what my orientation even was. It was really stressing out my partner, too, and making her question how I really felt about her.
What I really wasn’t expecting was that HRT would fix this. But it did. For the first time, I was able to be in the moment, and chill out about things, and be excited instead of stressing out. Sex was actually fun now! I used to think I was almost entirely into women - I just didn’t know what was getting in the way of putting that into practice. And now, it confirmed for me that I really am into women, and there’s nothing in the way anymore.
I can definitely see how HRT might help someone get in touch with who they really are, and clear up any misconceptions they might have had about their sexuality before. Dysphoria can really mess with your head. Eliminating it can provide a ton of clarity.
taurmaurils asked: I'll do this as an ask because you might not see it as a comment... I was just speaking to my MD about progesterone today (as I just got my first spiro scrip today, and waiting until later today to get my therapy letter to begin estrogen), and she (who is also a transwoman) was saying that after an extended study there was no documented benefit to breast size, but many documented conditions that it put you at risk of developing. I’m curious why you chose to increase your dosage...
Different doctors seem to have different opinions on the efficacy of progesterone - my obgyn prescribed me the original dose as well as the increased dose. For me, there are clear signs that it does have a positive effect.
After 9 months of just spiro and estrogen, I hadn’t gained a single pound, and my breasts were still a little cone-shaped and not very rounded. However, after 6 months of the initial dose of progesterone, I’ve put on nearly 20 lbs - I’ve never before been able to gain weight in my life. My breasts are much rounder, fuller, and they even feel meatier and denser. My butt and thighs have become much more feminine in their shape.
It’s entirely possible that this is effective in some women but not others. There may also be differences between medroxyprogesterone, which is a synthetic progestin, and micronized progesterone, which is just bioidentical progesterone. Personally, I was willing to try it to see if it would have an effect. I consider this to have been a positive decision for me, given the changes it’s produced, but each person has to make their own decision based on their evaluation of the potential benefits and risks.
Anonymous asked: Huger doses of micronised progesterone makes me capital D drunk; to the point that I am still dizzy the next morning. But I tend to react strongly to everything. Also, so much more breast growth! P is the best
Awesome! Looking forward to bigger bouncier boobs. I take mine in the morning and I tend to do alright, but we’ll see what happens with the new dose.
So this is the part where I ask other trans women what their experiences have been with increasing their dose of micronized progesterone, and how much this helped with their breast growth, and any other effects it has.